As salaamu ‘alai kum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh
I live in India. Born an brought up in a small city in India, I lived there for almost 18 years of my life after which I moved to Bangalore for graduation. I started developing interest and having some knowledge about Islam since the last seven years. My knowledge about Islam since then was limited to the five pillars of Islam. Nevertheless, I was not steadfast in prayers or islamic on a daily life basis. Though in my heart I knew that there is indeed only one God, I somehow never thought of Him to be Allah.
During the time I was away from my family, I came in touch with a Quran teacher, “apa” as I fondly address her and Alhamdulillah over 4 years I gained a lot of knowledge about Islam, reading the Quran shareef, Kalima, hadiths, duas etc. I never revealed my non-muslim background to her as well. I had the fear that she would not accept. That was my ignorance. I knew no muslim 4 years back and had no idea how welcoming this community could be. My relationship with apa was beautiful but even as I left, I could never gather the courage to leave by telling her the truth.
Things changed over the last two months.
Circumstances become tougher than usual. College got over, friends were gone and a new phase struck. Suddenly life did not seem the “fun” and “easy” as it used to before. I started reading about God in my free time and all I had was free time! I read more about Islam as well as other religions too and alhamdulillah my heart softened even more towards Islam. My heart accepted it as the truth and absolute truth. I turned to Allah (swt) for solace and help. I realised I did not have many muslim friends. I had never made an effort to. My urge to be an active part of the Ummah rose. I started practicing sincerely, praying regularly Alhamdulillah! and before I realised I was praying five times a day! However, my heart ached to have one muslim friend. The knowledge and interest I gained in the last 2 months made me realise how much I lacked. I wanted to disclose my experiences, the emotions I went through as and when I read each new Hadith, as and when I read a new ayah discovering the mercy of Allah (aw) on me. I wanted to share my joys everytime I saw a you-tube video explaining me to be patient, telling me about the laws and aspects of the beautiful religion that I chose and how as days passed I felt consoled by Allah (swt) and how my Salahs are still healing me gradually Alhamdulillah.
Internet has always been my prime source of knowledge for Islam. I started looking for online Indian communities which would help me, where I could find a sister muslimah to be my companion, where I could miraculously find a muslimah gathering or family events to socialise but to my utter dismay even after searching hard for weeks altogether I failed to find even one such community or platform for me to increase my islamic social circle. There are helplines and websites for this purpose all around the UK and the USA but I could not find such platform in India where I could go and meet some muslims.
This Ramadan has been lonely. Waking up alone for Sehri, Opening fasts alone at Iftar. For men perhaps it’s easier. They have masjids to go to where they may meet fellow muslims and may approach them. Such however is not the case for women in India. There are no masjids for women and thus I am helpless in this matter too as I am confined to praying at home.
This made me realise, there are perhaps other muslimahs around in my country who face the same issues. Therefore, i decided to start my blog as an invitation to the Prophet’s(saw) ummah in India, especially reverts to interact and seek all sorts of help, communication etc. If anyone out there wishes to talk, share an emotion, an problem regarding reversion, interact in any way you must feel free to message/ comment on my post and I will Insha’Allah get back to you. I wish to provide a platform where reverts may interact with the ummah and feel a part of it. Hence, I request fellow muslims/ muslimahs to extend their hand for this humanitarian purpose. The mission might seem not so important, but for a revert more than gaining knowledge, lack of support and solace becomes more painful while walking on the path of our deen.
In this Blog, I shall be slowly dealing with the my journey into Islam, how my life changed, how I decided to take a step forward and come closer to my deen, what problems do I face on a daily basis as a revert and whether is tougher to be a revert in India.
Please do feel a part of this cause and make efforts to interact and lend a ear to your fellow mates. Insha’Allah we shall save many reverts from spending a lonely life ahead and let them know that we are there whenever they feel helpless and short of a friend.
Please remember me in your prayers. Jazakallah Khair
Walekum Salam wa Rahmatullahi wa barakatuh