my journey as a revert muslimah

The first step…

As salaamu ‘alai kum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

I live in India. Born an brought up in a small city in India, I lived there for almost 18 years of my life after which I moved to Bangalore for graduation. I started developing interest and having some knowledge about Islam since the last seven years. My knowledge about Islam since then was limited to the five pillars of Islam. Nevertheless, I was not steadfast in prayers or islamic on a daily life basis. Though in my heart I knew that there is indeed only one God, I somehow never thought of Him to be Allah.

During the time I was away from my family, I came in touch with a Quran teacher, “apa” as I fondly address her and Alhamdulillah over 4 years I gained a lot of knowledge about Islam, reading the Quran shareef, Kalima, hadiths, duas etc. I never revealed my non-muslim background to her as well. I had the fear that she would not accept. That was my ignorance. I knew no muslim 4 years back and had no idea how welcoming this community could be. My relationship with apa was beautiful but even as I left, I could never gather the courage to leave by telling her the truth.

Things changed over the last two months.

Circumstances become tougher than usual. College got over, friends were gone and a new phase struck. Suddenly life did not seem the “fun” and “easy” as it used to before. I started reading about God in my free time and all I had was free time! I read more about Islam as well as other religions too and alhamdulillah my heart softened even more towards Islam. My heart accepted it as the truth and absolute truth. I turned to Allah (swt) for solace and help. I realised I did not have many muslim friends. I had never made an effort to. My urge to be an active part of the Ummah rose. I started practicing sincerely, praying regularly Alhamdulillah! and before I realised I was praying five times a day! However, my heart ached to have one muslim friend. The knowledge and interest I gained in the last 2 months made me realise how much I lacked. I wanted to disclose my experiences, the emotions I went through as and when I read each new Hadith, as and when I read a new ayah discovering the mercy of Allah (aw) on me. I wanted to share my joys everytime I saw a you-tube video explaining me to be patient, telling me about the laws and aspects of the beautiful religion that I chose and how as days passed I felt consoled by Allah (swt) and how my Salahs are still healing me gradually Alhamdulillah.

Internet has always been my prime source of knowledge for Islam. I started looking for online Indian communities which would help me, where I could find a sister muslimah to be my companion, where I could miraculously find a muslimah gathering or family events to socialise but to my utter dismay even after searching hard for weeks altogether I failed to find even one such community or platform for me to increase my islamic social circle. There are helplines and websites for this purpose all around the UK and the USA but I could not find such platform in India where I could go and meet some muslims. 

This Ramadan has been lonely. Waking up alone for Sehri, Opening fasts alone at Iftar. For men perhaps it’s easier. They have masjids to go to where they may meet fellow muslims and may approach them. Such however is not the case for women in India. There are no masjids for women and thus I am helpless in this matter too as I am confined to praying at home. 

This made me realise, there are perhaps other muslimahs around in my country who face the same issues. Therefore, i decided to start my blog as an invitation to the Prophet’s(saw) ummah in India, especially reverts to interact and seek all sorts of help, communication etc. If anyone out there wishes to talk, share an emotion, an problem regarding reversion, interact in any way you must feel free to message/ comment on my post and I will Insha’Allah get back to you. I wish to provide a platform where reverts may interact with the ummah and feel a part of it. Hence, I request fellow muslims/ muslimahs to extend their hand for this humanitarian purpose. The mission might seem not so important, but for a revert more than gaining knowledge, lack of support and solace becomes more painful while walking on the path of our deen. 

In this Blog, I shall be slowly dealing with the my journey into Islam, how my life changed, how I decided to take a step forward and come closer to my deen, what problems do I face on a daily basis as a revert and whether is tougher to be a revert in India.

Please do feel a part of this cause and make efforts to interact and lend a ear to your fellow mates. Insha’Allah we shall save many reverts from spending a lonely life ahead and let them know that we are there whenever they feel helpless and short of a friend.

Please remember me in your prayers. Jazakallah Khair

Walekum Salam wa Rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

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37 thoughts on “The first step…

  1. Assalamu alekum sis. I know this is a very old post but I just landed here…may be beacuse somewhere ur brain keeps on questionsing “how this person accepted islam”…even though I’m not perfect and each day I try to know islam more…but conversion of others is always a curiosity…

    I read your post and there were tears in my eyes and I felt the pain of loniless u would be facing…couples of years ago i had met someone like you ..I mean who had converted herself and spreading islam ….we all use to call her “Apa” I had felt so shameful that even though I was born muslim but was not aware about any of the hadith she was talking about.She was just so beautiful that any man could go mad for her but she was preserving her beauty for Allah… In that time I was going thru lots of ups and downs in my life and it was like Allah had sent her to listen my problem and console me and help me. And whenever i read your post I just feel as if I’m talking to her…:)

    Your page has also come to me as a Allah’s gift because in my office they have banned most of the sites and in free time I use to read some haidths site but unfortunately was unable to get anything because of the recent restriction…but here ur blog is accessible and I’m thankful to Allah that I’m again doing the same what I wanted to do…..Just consider me as your freind and let me know if at anytime you need any help from me…

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    • Wa alai kumus salam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh. I am so glad you came across someone so nice and pious. SubhanAllah. I am impressed by her very description, she must indeed be a very magnificent personality. May Allah always endow her with all goodness. I am humbled that you’ve placed me even remotely parallel to her. I am but another striving slave of Allah- sinning, learning, repenting and sinning.

      I would like to personally get in touch if you do not mind. Please mail me at therevertedmuslimah@gmail.com if you are comfortable with it.

      Jazakillah khair ❤

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  2. ahkamsaddam says:

    Assalamu alaikum sister! I am a Muslim brother by birth from India currently studying in Europe. I accidentally found your blog as I am just using the wordpress to read interesting things. Alhamdulilah! Its really interesting and motivating for me to see your striving for islam. May Allah ease you and firm your hearts in Islam. Please drop me an e-mail if you need of any help which I can with the help of Allah.

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  4. avd says:

    Salaam sister, I was in the process of starting a blog myself and stumbled upon yours. I’m a fellow convert/revert too. I’m Indian but at this time I am pursuing a graduate degree in the US. We should definitely get in touch! Please email me ( I am guessing wordpress allows you to see my email address)! I think there are many of us out there including you, me, people who have commented on your post, and perhaps several others who have not reached here yet, who would benefit from staying connected, insha Allah. Take care! Salaams!

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  5. Masha Allah. It’s always impressive to me how reverts stay motivated in Islam with little or no help from fellow muslims. Alhamdulillah, your community is growing so you don’t have to feel lonely. I wish you more development in the deen. Salaam from Nigeria. 😀

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    • As salamu alai kum, jazakallah for dropping by my blog, reading my posts and making dua 🙂 it is after all not so lonely with the help and duas of my brothers and sisters of Islam. AllahuAkbar. Inshallah, I hope to see our community grow too.. Allah swt indeed makes it easier when you strive for his cause. May he bless you abundantly and forever guide you to be steadfast. Ameen. Wslm.

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  6. Asalam alaikum!! MashaAllah sister! So happy to find your blog alhamdulilah!! I am a revert from India too and as you are already following my blog I am glad to have reached you. I am sure your post resonates with every revert sister in India!! Keep walking. May Allah SWT ease your way and reward you with jannah. Ameen!! Do check your mail

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  7. Here’s another great sister’s blog that you might like: http://convertconfessions.wordpress.com/
    and I think if I remember right there’s another google search you could do for “muslim bloggers” – that might give you more community, insha’Allah. I love blogging because it gives me a community to belong to, too. Living in Egypt is kind of similar, culturally, as India… I don’t really go out of my house, except with my husband, and that’s pretty rare. Alhamdulillah I’m not lonely anymore since I started blogging! ♥♥♥ ;^)

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    • That is so nice of you sister .. I took up blogging for the same reasons as your’s. I have never been much of a blogger before but its like I have so much pent up inside me to share about this religion and I have virtually nobody to talk to about this. I hope I do well.. Please be in touch.! 🙂 ❤

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      • Definitely, insha’Allah! I look forward to your posts!
        I write a weekly article about Islam and the environment on http://edenkeeper.org you might enjoy – my last 3 articles and 1 more to come during Ramadan are focused on “heavenly food” – grapes, dates and honey. I haven’t written the last one for Ramadan yet, but insha’Allah maybe the olive! The website is multi-faith and please make du’a for Allah to guide me carefully to represent Islam accurately and insha’Allah maybe some reader will accept Islam as a result, ya Rabb il alameen, ameen! ♥♥♥ ;^)

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  8. Ramadan mubarak and kareem, dear sister! Greetings and salaams from Egypt! Thanks so much for visiting and following my blog, it’s very nice to meet you, alhamdulillah! Allah make it easier for you, insha’Allah, and give you many beautiful indian muslim sisters for friends, ya Rabb il alameen, ameen! Here is a link for a sister with lots of contacts, her blog is great, too, masha’Allah http://morethanhijab.com/
    Allah guide you, and me too, always on the beautiful straight path, insha’Allah! ♥♥♥ ;^)

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    • As salamu ‘alai kum dear sister Aisha,
      Ramadan Mubarakh ! it is so humbling to see this response from you. It was indeed very nice to see your blog. Masha’allah it is beautiful. Thank you for this warmth and support. I hope I get to know you better in the coming days. May Allah shower you with Blessings, forgiveness and Prosperity. Jazakallah Khair 🙂

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  9. Sister, Jazak’Allah Khair for joining my Instagram page. I shared your story on my Instagram and Masha’Allah there are some Muslimah’s that would love to chat with you, some are from India as well 🙂 Feel free to add them to your Instagram account ❤ May Allah bless you immensely

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  10. Assalamualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakathu sister, you have a beautiful blog. May Allah make this journey into Islam easy for you. If you have Instagram, I invite you to my page, my username is @themuslimahmommy. Alhumdulillah, my Instagram page has many Muslimah’s from around the world, much like yourself. I’m very impressed by your courage to start you blog, Insha’Allah looking forward to many more posts from you sis ❤

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