Those little moments you spend with your best companion- You. The one who has been there through all your ups and down. The only human who knows the storm within you. Every chaos and serenity that you’ve witnessed. Are you comfortable being alone with this person? To just sit in silence with her for fifteen minutes. With no gadget, with no book, without a piece of paper or even lights.
It is not an unknown feeling. Perhaps it is one we run away from. Our innate nature (fitrah) knows where things have gone wrong. Every little you do wrongly but hide it from the world, but it knows. That little lie, those wrongly fulfilled desires, those pangs of envy, the buts of superiority, the innocent statement you made against that person or the labour whom you bargained to underpay. It tells you that you will eventually be caught.
What will you do?
Run. Rush… Rush into Sujood. Dive into the pool of mercy. A Sujood that will piece the guilt right through your heart. That will drip down all that burdens you. Plead. There is no better way than to accept.
The acceptance before your Maker will relieve you. Make dua’a for forgiveness of the harmed. Make dua’a for the ummah. Make dua’a for yourself.
Just be there.. until serenity blankets you.
and enjoy the beautiful company of you again. Each day. It’s a date.
“And all of you beg Allah to forgive you, O believers, that you may be successful”. (Qur’an, 24:31)